musings and reflections of hollyholz

Random Tidbits

Yes, I've returned to the old way of blogging pt form... just some random babblings :)

~ I've found a new magazine that I enjoy indulging myself into... Vanity Fair. I picked up the recent issue as a result of impulse buying. :) I was amazed to see the amount of writing, photography, and issues the mag deals with... :D Quite pleased despite spending that much money on a mag.

~ I've succumbed to talking to myself while studying. As I was studying for my tax midterm yesterday, I found myself talking to myself, making sure I knew what the tax credits and deductions were, the tax rules, etc.

~ I'm constantly reminded of God's grace and guidance, despite good and bad times. Another song in my head: Blessed Be the Name by Matt Redman... Check out Sarah's blog for the lyrics!

~ I miss fellowshipping... I saw Pegs' blog and saw the pics...! Awwww...

~ My memory is failing me.... I can't remember what I wanna write anymore... and I had a big long blog in mind too!

posted by Holz @ 1:56 PM |

This Mystery || Nichole Nordeman

Say goodnight to the light of the setting sun,
One more day, one more way
Of keeping track of all I've done
I run this race, keep this pace, I'm doing fine
And I won't stop until each box,
Gets checked a second time.

And life becomes the 'round and 'round,
Revolving door that won't slow down,
it won't slow down.

Do You wish, do You want us to breathe again?
Say good bye to the lines that we've colored in
Brown and gray from day to day
Do You cry, do You hope for all things made new?
Try and try to invoke us to live in You.
That we might be the hands and feet
of this mystery.

This routine is nice and clean from dawn to dusk
I rise and rest, I do my best
When will it ever be enough?
And life becomes the bigger noise,
Drowning out Your little voice,
Your little voice, Jesus.

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This song really reflects what I've been feeling and going through for the past two months. Yet, it's a constant reminder... today's sermon emphasized the need to really "be the hands and feet of this mystery", and not to have me worry about my schooling and other matters as much.

I'm constantly learning... day by day.

posted by Holz @ 11:03 PM |

Lord, I offer my life to You,
Everything I've been through,
Use it for Your glory,
Lord, I offer my days to You,
Lifting my Praise to You,
As a pleasing sacrifice.
Lord I offer You my life.

Everyday, I'm constantly challenged with new problems - let it be school related, family related, or in general. However, I can't forget the blessings He has also given me alongside. I must always remember that He'll guide me through. In the midst of problems and situations, all I can do is offer it up to Him and have Him guide my life.

posted by Holz @ 1:42 PM |

What a Week...

... full of self-realizations, stress, joys, and good times with old friends.

::warning - a long blog ahead::

I must apologize for the lack of blog updates; I've been neglecting my blog a little more than a week :( I've been going through some things, including a midterm that I just bombed.

As I mentioned, I've had plenty of opportunities this week to reflect on myself - my priorities, my weaknesses, where I'm at in my spiritual walk, things like that. It's kinda like a slap in a face to a certain extent, but in a good way... simply to wake me up. My mom contributed to that... (no, she didn't yell at me; actually, if anything, she shared my emotions with me... which to a certain extent, I feel terribly guilty for)

Regardless, it's a fresh new start. :)

I took a break from school & other busy things in life today; spent time with family and friends. Props to Haley for inviting some of us to her afternoon tea gathering! As I always stress, there is constantly new things you realise about this wonderful city & the towns surrounding it. We had high tea at a really old (but unique) tea shop on Main Street in Markham - The Old Curiosity Tea Shop. It's apparently been around for 100 years. It was great spending time with Haley (albeit she was a bit busy playing hostess), Richard, and Sarah. Great times spent! :) (Photos to be up soon... only of the tea shop though)

Fellowship this past week was awesome too :) Had a Bible Study on the meaning of Fellowship based on Acts 2:42-47, and other verses. The practical approach Ian and Jon took was GREAT :D We all had a piece of paper where we'd simply write our name and a simple problem (mine's was "How to write a good Canadian Economics History Essay"); after, we would pass the paper around the circle and encourage each other or give a solution to the problem. God's working in Josiah in many ways. However, I do believe it's something to really sit down and ponder about, seeing where exactly God is leading us; it seems like there are soooo many different ways He's leading us! :)

I didn't blog about my thanksgiving wkend, which I do regret to a certain extent. These past few weekends have presented many opportunities for me to catch up with old friends :) Last Saturday, I had the opportunity to see Karen-o, my friend Cal, and also Jen, my older sis in Christ in Emmanuel. I had waaaaay too much caffeine, but many memories came out of it! I also had a chance to bump into Carol, albeit it was ironic where we met each other. It kinda hinted to the both of us that we better start catching up w/ each other!

Enough reminiscing. Must get ready for bed - you must think I'm crazy; I'm actually trying to sleep early for my own benefit and for my mother's. Fresh new start tomorrow - Economics Essay, here I come!

posted by Holz @ 10:40 PM |

:)

Thanks, God :)

posted by Holz @ 9:29 AM |

Numbers for You!

13 - number of zits or zit marks on my face
2 - number of days i have until my graduation photo

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

In other news, I had a relatively good day today - slowly, but surely, learning more and more about faith. Spent some time with my mom this afternoon - afternoon tea, hair cut, etc. I should, however, be studying my arse off, but as you can see, I have decided to blog instead. I swear, anything is more interesting than studying. I was incredibly giddy over the wkend when I bought a Swiffer Duster, and started dusting my room... I was so excited, and so happy that I was dusting.

Just reading about my Swiffer Duster experience made me realize how sad my life is. :)

posted by Holz @ 12:53 AM |

What a week...

I've never felt so stressed about school ever. I wonder how I will pull through in the next three months. Will I be intact by the time my 21st birthday rolls around? I certainly feel tired, strained, and exhausted right now.

Regardless, a few accomplishments and lessons learned this past week:

1. Being able to drive solo on the 401
Yes, Holly can drive by herself now! :) (but only drive herself, her grandparents, or her parents around... no other passengers allowed yet) Went to my grandparents' this past week in the east side of Scarberia, near the zoo. Took the 401 home by myself :) Me so happy. You don't understand my joy... I think the only ppl that do would be Sarah, Myles, Ian, Karen... :D Nevertheless, Holly can now drive on the highway!

2. God has given me awesome parents
My parents have been a constant encouragement so far this school year. They've put up with my stress and worries. They are the ones God used to speak to me, letting me know that I have to let go and let Him work - something I have forgotten for a while. They have reminded me that God definitely has a plan for me, albeit it may not necessarily be a plan that relates to the path I'm taking right now. Let go, let God. Takin' it as it goes.

3. Behind every life, there's an awesome story to tell
Last week, I blogged about the death of Mrs. Cheung. Today, while enjoying an early coffee with an Uncle from church, I learned that Mrs. Cheung actually went to Seminary in HK, and could've been a pastor. She actually went to seminary upon retiring... wowzas.

I must sleep - long wk ahead, with a deadly course to study for. :(

posted by Holz @ 1:40 AM |

Taking a Break

... not from Blogger, no worries! After a year and a half, I'm still keeping at it! :) It's quite interesting... I'm just taking a break from an assignment; despite not having it done yet, I still want to relax somewhat. I haven't blogged in pt form style for a while, so here goes:

~ My Diary
While cleaning out a shoebox underneath my desk, I found the only diary I ever filled up daily from grade 7. MAN I was I ever a weird kid. Actually, I still don't quite understand why I was such an outcast back in junior high, but that's the past and kids were mean and nasty then. Some of them still are actually :P Hahaha. But I guess I'm glad my days were brighter ever since I went to Thornlea... and am grateful for the friends I've made then and now. :) I never realized how freaky my obsession with a certain celebrity was though... hehe... ask me about it if interested. I'm too ashamed to post it online :D

~ Drivin' on my Own
Yes, I feel like a kid when I tell people that I drove on the highway solo :) BUT I DID! :) ALL BY MYSELF! Yes, lately, I've been driving on my own more and more, and am very excited. Yet, I feel like this should've been a stage in my life occuring a few years back, not now. However, for those of you who know the story, you'll understand my exhuberance and joy :)

~ Starbucks and Other Addictions
Yes, I have a stupid goal in mind - I should have more concrete goals rather than attempting to try every single beverage available at Starbucks. Perhaps it's propaganada. Having a Starbucks every block or so around the school vicinity doesn't really help my current addiction. Another addiction of mine is Friendster. Not that I'm interested in meeting people, but I'm interested in finding the degrees of separation between people and through different connections too. Haha. Why do these addictions occur when SCHOOL is in the way?

All righty, back to the assignment. *sigh* One and a bit more pages to go... whee! I wish I was more confident about the content though :P

posted by Holz @ 6:45 PM |