5.10.2005

a self-reminder:

10% experience
90% attitude

= what you get out of life

totally in line w/ one of my personal goals of the moment - to refrain from complaining regardless of the situation.

posted by Holz @ 12:21 AM |

5.02.2005

Thoughts in my Mind...

In my lowest moments as of late, I thought of writing the following on my blog, addressed to certain people who probably will never check this blog:

"I've had enough. I'm sick of having to make the constant effort in attempting to maintain (or salvage) our 'friendship'. I'm tired. I've tried, and it's one sided. I'm sick of being invisible. Being ignored. Perhaps you don't realise it... and I'm pretty sure you don't, but it does hurt. Being left out certainly isn't a great feeling, but you wouldn't know, would you? Yeah, I pretty much doubt it. I'm tired of attempting to catch up. I long for consistency... and by that, I don't mean a get together once a year. I think I'm just gonna give up on you, cos it simply isn't worth it."

Then it hit me.

God never gives up on me. No matter how much I've ignored Him, forgotten about Him in good times (yet running to Him in bad), He hasn't given up on me... He offers His love and grace, regardless of my actions, or rather, my lack of actions.

Devo later last night also reminded me - regardless of the hurt that I've experienced (not just from one person... but a few), I can choose to either dwell on it or not. I choose the latter - letting go of these unhappy thoughts, and instead, be thankful for what has already been given to me.

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things." Philippians 4:8

posted by Holz @ 11:14 PM |